Dedicated to my friend who choose to kill himself.May your soul Rest In Peace my friend
"Sometimes life is going to throw the brick at you don't loose hope"greatly inspiring words by a world changer who is no more with us today!
A rather disturbing news stuck me recently!! Something I'd never dreamt in my life would happen! A classmate or should I say a friend of mine chose to do something that would leave a lasting impact on so many people around him!! He chose to kill himself for a reason that only he knows I guess. He was a quiet guy with a nice smile on his face,he used to wave to me every time we came across each other.we have also sat and had lunch together quite a few times. I still remember his witty and funny punch line jokes.its so disturbing that everything gets over in an instant.A person who was walking and talking with you every single day, would not be there with us.whatever be the reason for his strong self destructive act,I don't intend to disrespect it but I'd say I would dislike it.but death is something we can never undo.
I have always been of the opinion that one must always fight in life we have failures, we falter,fumble and we're broken but the true test of ones character lies here.a person becomes admirable if he overcomes the hurdles that life throws at him! Life has always been hard sweaty and dirty, we all have had to work for whatever little or big we have gained. After this incident my desire to live has become
Much stronger, I have found a new purpose in life! I wish to achieve great feats and be recognised for the work I do!!I would again like to quote Steve Jobs "Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary".This is so rightly said,we must always find purpose to live in this world.Infact I find that,if there's a problem with the way the society is,I strongly feel we should grow in stature and then see to it we change the society by making ourself a role model to it.In his Stanford University's speech,Steve Jobs also adds this line "If you live each day as if it were your last,someday you'll most certainly be right".I really found the line very inspiring,something that I have tried to adopt,"to live each day like it were my last"that way we tend to live our fullest every single day.
One must never think of killing himself,whatever be the reason,one must always fight and jump over the problems and hurdles that life throws at us.
This is the elite Vattam signing off!
Thursday, December 22, 2011
Thursday, December 15, 2011
Aisa Bhi hota hai :P
It was yet another half day in college,but I had to wait up to discuss about a project that I had taken up with my senior,so I had to stay back while my friends and classmates hopped onto their bikes and drove off!!I had not planned or decided what I would do till my senior arrives.I was just sitting infront of our department where the college parking lot is also situated.Lost in the thought of what I should do,I was just looking around and watching the passing by people and thinking about the project.Just then I happened to spot a girl whom I didn't know personally but knew she belonged to the Dept of Info Science,she happened to be a friend's friend.Me being a shy person,going and talking to strangers or rather unknown people was not a habbit that I had developed,but then I was a Free and Open Source software enthusiast with quite a bit of promotional and marketing skills in myself.I always derived happiness when I was able to convince people to get hooked to the world of FOSS.I somehow was able to do it successfully when I was part of "CONF.KDE.IN".I was handling promotion/campaigning and logistics.It was an awesome experience there,meeting interesting people and also able to convince and draw students from various colleges to our conference which had so much in it for them.It is something I am very proud of till date.I was able to discover a lot of things about myself which has today helped me chalk out a plan for my professional life ahead.Hmmm,well this is what all FOSS has done to me.
But then as they say "life is full of surprises" just like I had approached people to tell about Free and Open Source Software,I thought this will be a smooth one too.Like always I introduced myself and told about the organisation called "KDE" the organisation I support and standby!!As I told this girl,she listened to me like a normal sane girl,I asked her,her email id,which she did give to me with no "If's and But's",things went on smoothly,I even mailed her the details of KDE and how one can start contributing to this wonderful organisation.She nodded her head for all the amazing things I'd told her about FOSS.Never a moment during our very brief conversation did I think that it would be an embarrassment for me.I ended the conversation with my usual "it was nice talking to you" and left.
The day passed,I mailed her the details in the evening and forgot about this event in college.It was the next day and in the evening at around 7 I got a sms from this friend of mine who knew her and also was in the same dept as her.There was something in it which was waiting to embarrass me.When I hit the "read" button,I found a rather unusual piece of phrase,the message was something like "En maga maatadistyante?" which means " hey dude I heard you spoke to her",I was quite puzzled on the tonne of the question put before me,the first few minutes I was wondering what this Dude's talking about,then I realised,it was that girl he was talking about!!
I promptly replied "Yes I did speak to her about This awesome thing called FOSS and KDE"He started to interrogate me like I had done some hideous crime of eve teasing and raping a girl!!I didn't find any sanity or sense in the string of questions he threw at me for just speaking to a person about free and open source software.Well in the end I asked him,"dude tell m e have I done anything wrong??"to which his reply was something filled with sarcasm,he replied "Dude I was just trying to pull your leg".Well I had already typed "F**K Off" which I didnt send after all.I thought this incident and wondered what was my mistake?? for which I got an honest answer from myself which said " I didn't do anything wrong".That crazy guy who happens to know a few of my friends told this to them in such a dramatic manner that my friend's thought that I had turned in to some "Nutty Eve teaser".Though it was funny to them,I was boiling inside.Then I gave my brain some more work asking it to think with all its neurons and tell me what the girl might have told to him..I got some crazy answers of which "she is a B**#%h" was a convincing one.I felt happy that such loosers didnt become part of FOSS.Despite the honest effort I put in to detach people from the proprietary world to a world which has freedom written all over it,Stupid people like these always try to pull us down.But this incident has not dented my spirits to promote for FOSS even a tiny bit.I wish to carry on..Lastly I wish to tell you what she had in mind about me,I got to know from one of my friends who happens to be his friend too,that she went to some "handwriting analysis class" where she was taught some gesture recognition techniques which she experimented on me and concluded that I am some sort of a "serial rapist" waiting to F**K girls!!I laughed my ass off and wondered "Aisa Bhi HOta hai :P" I have a nice line from a cool song which says "main jo bhi karoon tum kehete ho Ghalat"
I see her quite often in college and think of telling her," dear I have sisters too and I have friends who are girls too" I respect women and lastly "YOu and YOUR people analysis skills SuCK"
This is the Elite Vattam signing off!!
But then as they say "life is full of surprises" just like I had approached people to tell about Free and Open Source Software,I thought this will be a smooth one too.Like always I introduced myself and told about the organisation called "KDE" the organisation I support and standby!!As I told this girl,she listened to me like a normal sane girl,I asked her,her email id,which she did give to me with no "If's and But's",things went on smoothly,I even mailed her the details of KDE and how one can start contributing to this wonderful organisation.She nodded her head for all the amazing things I'd told her about FOSS.Never a moment during our very brief conversation did I think that it would be an embarrassment for me.I ended the conversation with my usual "it was nice talking to you" and left.
The day passed,I mailed her the details in the evening and forgot about this event in college.It was the next day and in the evening at around 7 I got a sms from this friend of mine who knew her and also was in the same dept as her.There was something in it which was waiting to embarrass me.When I hit the "read" button,I found a rather unusual piece of phrase,the message was something like "En maga maatadistyante?" which means " hey dude I heard you spoke to her",I was quite puzzled on the tonne of the question put before me,the first few minutes I was wondering what this Dude's talking about,then I realised,it was that girl he was talking about!!
I promptly replied "Yes I did speak to her about This awesome thing called FOSS and KDE"He started to interrogate me like I had done some hideous crime of eve teasing and raping a girl!!I didn't find any sanity or sense in the string of questions he threw at me for just speaking to a person about free and open source software.Well in the end I asked him,"dude tell m e have I done anything wrong??"to which his reply was something filled with sarcasm,he replied "Dude I was just trying to pull your leg".Well I had already typed "F**K Off" which I didnt send after all.I thought this incident and wondered what was my mistake?? for which I got an honest answer from myself which said " I didn't do anything wrong".That crazy guy who happens to know a few of my friends told this to them in such a dramatic manner that my friend's thought that I had turned in to some "Nutty Eve teaser".Though it was funny to them,I was boiling inside.Then I gave my brain some more work asking it to think with all its neurons and tell me what the girl might have told to him..I got some crazy answers of which "she is a B**#%h" was a convincing one.I felt happy that such loosers didnt become part of FOSS.Despite the honest effort I put in to detach people from the proprietary world to a world which has freedom written all over it,Stupid people like these always try to pull us down.But this incident has not dented my spirits to promote for FOSS even a tiny bit.I wish to carry on..Lastly I wish to tell you what she had in mind about me,I got to know from one of my friends who happens to be his friend too,that she went to some "handwriting analysis class" where she was taught some gesture recognition techniques which she experimented on me and concluded that I am some sort of a "serial rapist" waiting to F**K girls!!I laughed my ass off and wondered "Aisa Bhi HOta hai :P" I have a nice line from a cool song which says "main jo bhi karoon tum kehete ho Ghalat"
I see her quite often in college and think of telling her," dear I have sisters too and I have friends who are girls too" I respect women and lastly "YOu and YOUR people analysis skills SuCK"
This is the Elite Vattam signing off!!
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